the pernicious effects of restlessness 'n worry

HI I HAve SLEPT FOR 14 hours and dreamed a dream of roller skating down ashlan avenue to blackstone. i tried to persuade my sister to lemme buy her rollerskates off of her for a fair price but she resisted my offer. then there was a mirror or something. the other night i had a dream all human beings were fat (i was fat too.)
HI I Have slept FOR 14 hours. what have you done with your life???

'honey, why can't you just like the sweet goodhearted handsome boys?'
'i'll tell ya why i can't like them... i can't like them because i'm a fool. i can't like them because i can never like a person who sees me as wonderful and sectacular and all that. i don't even see myself as all that... we'd have nothin' in common. somebody who despises me.. now there is someone i can relate to.'
'come on now! here is a boy who would be good to you, who is a beneficial opposite to you, and you aren't even gonna give him a chance?'
'i'm afraid not... i haven't before and i don't think anything's gonna change this time around. I want a miserable little fool like myself. now what's that cliche...'
'ah, but you know that doesn't quite work out either, don't it?'
'nope. looks like i'll never be the sorta gal to carry on a healthy relationship.'
'now, now, you are just being a defeatist!'
'sure, but it's a helluva lot better than being an optimist. optimists set themselves up for failure and when they fall, they fall hard. they put everything on such a high platform that the drop is devastating. you place your aspirations on low ground.. well, you hardly feel the fall at all. In fact, things can turn out better than you expected.'
'well, if you are in accordance to that view then you really are not excluding the sweet goodhearted handsome boy.. you're just not expecting for him to live up to your expectation of him being a sweet goodhearted handsome boy.. am i correct?'
'you could be,'
'that's good news. things may work out then, right?'
'possibly, but i am not putting any bets on it.'
'oh, that's right... because you are a defeatist.'
'sure. if you say so.'
'oh. i understand now.'
'good.'